Wednesday, September 24, 2014

MISTY BRIDGE




















"MISTY BRIDGE"
8x10" oil on canvas



 Okay, don't laugh. Yes, it's a landscape...of sorts. This puppy has been on the easel since I finished Laura 3! The reference, from morgueFile.com, was taken by...still searching for the name...when I find it I will be sure to give credit where credit is due...I hope!

Anyway, looks like I just can't up and decide to dive into painting a landscape! Each and every time I sat down to work on this I just felt so overwhelmed. Not sure whether is was feeling inadequate or just not feelin' like working but there it is. It's been well over a month! I had so planned to post at least 3 times since then. It's sloppy and not very good but at least I tried. I had planned to go back and make nice, but I'm callin it. I'm done. Landscape attempt officially ticked off the list. I think. And of course, I never stopped to consider a smoother surface would have helped...just grabbed a dry canvas in stock that was already painted black. Putz!

Our friend Laura is coming over for a photo session and I'm even considering props and concepts...so hopefully soon I'll get back to some sort of structure and perhaps even some consistency in working and posting. We'll see! I have to have a plan or there's just one broken promise after another, but the good news is that I'm giving little Suz a break and not being so hard on her. All things considered, I think she's doing pretty well given the circumstances. I finally realized that she needs my constant support not my constant criticism and like Tim "said", even if you decide to laze in front of the flat screen with a bag of something unhealthy, embrace and enjoy that decision to the fullest. It's the depression that follows that feeds that negative vibration.

Had an old college bud from FIT stay for a bit. She put me in touch with how much I really need to get back into living and doing. I thought I was doing fine in that department, however a deep desire to cocoon in the house with my all my toys and the boys was made very apparent during her stay. That's fine though. I'll get out more and do more but my fear of having to become a social butterfly (clearly not me or Tim for that matter) was lovingly quelled by "hearing" that he doesn't care if I'm alone in the middle of the Sahara Desert, as long as I'm happy and enjoying it. Whew! Thanks dude!

Tim continues to surprise and delight with his presence and little synchronicities and coincidences. There are times that I have gotten so in tune with him that I wonder why I can't see him. I'm finally meditating on a somewhat daily basis and it's really helping me feel more centered and calm. And someone...wonder who?... stroked my finger three times the other day while I sat!!! Hello!!! I am so grateful for this connection and grateful that I'm so open to it. I cannot imagine what life would be like if I wasn't.

Cannot accept it's September, which, as much as I'd hoped has done nothing to make it still July. Time marches on does it not? Happy fall and thank you so much for stopping by. It means the world to me.

13 comments:

  1. Golly - Suzanne. This has a genuine spiritual feel to it - walking towards the light - and then, after reading your last paragraph, it all fell into place.
    Our subconscious is an amazing place. Beautiful

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  2. My Supreme Gunkness, you ARE doing well! The painting is beautiful - very ethereal, and, as Julie mentioned, spiritual. It has a very good feel to it, and most artists would give their right arm to be able to paint like this. I am teaching a watercolor class right now, and I think I must take the plunge into the depths of landscape as well. Suz, I am so happy to be reading about you again. Don't disappear for so long ...
    the other Supreme Gunkness XX

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  3. SO beautiful, Suzanne! and yes, SO spiritual! That light is amazing as well as the bridge... I hope you do more landscapes...a beautiful change!!

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  4. We feel like we want to walk right into this painting,,, its soo inviting!
    Its drawing us in,, and we feel that your vibration was perfect as you places each stroke on the canvas!
    Beautiful
    love
    tweedles

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  5. Really Suzanne, you are hard on yourself I think you did a beaut job of this landscape. It has a very hopeful uplifting mood...and I feel like down that path where that bridge is something wonderful is cookin. heh heh

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  6. I think this is a beautiful piece. Has a wonderful, early misty morning ethereal feel to it. Im not sure why you felt challenged doing a landscape as you clearly have the feel for it. I love that you meditate daily. I try to but sometimes life gets in the way until I realise that meditation is a way to ground myself against all those little life nìggles. And it's lovely that it's also a way for you to feel Tim's connection even stronger.

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  7. Suz, I am just not sure why you don't see the gorgeousness of this landscape. The mist, the greens...absolutely exquisite and so a scene I'd love to see myself. To paint it? Icing on the cake.

    I am also glad Tim continues to make himself known to you. I think he always will.

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  8. Your landscape is gorgeous! I tend to avoid painting them myself - just not my thing, but I like looking at the ones other people paint! I'm glad you are getting back in to the swing of life, by embracing the past and looking forward to the future. And of course the only way to do that is by making the most of the present :0)

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  9. There were a lot of things you said here that resonated with me, especially the feeling that generally as artists in pursuit of art we are collectively people who tend to need to be alone. (My neighbor called me a "shut-in" the other day.) And I can see why you were drawn to painting the photo. It leads us in. Cheers :)

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  10. Just getting out of bed after the shock of losing you beloved is laudable.
    So, you're ahead of the game.
    I enjoy hearing about your connection with Tim, in one way so comforting and in another so hard, because you can't see him.
    You're doing well and the landscape is kind of cool, but not laughable.

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  11. You're being too hard on yourself with your landscape. It is not as "finished" a piece as most of your work but there is definitely a beauty and freshness to it that I like. Makes me want to take a walk there. Hope you have a glorious autumn!

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  12. Good morning Suz!..."Play Misty for me"..... Remember that movie line... and Clint Eastwood thriller? The song "Killing Me Softly"... which when I hear it still played irreguarly.. still stands the hair up on the back of my neck. It always seemed so beautifully out of character/synch with the content of the movie... and still remains so for me today.

    Your beautiful light-filled... tranquil landscape evokes a similar response. Though not disquieting at all... it stands out as being so unexpectedly "different" from all of your previous works posted!

    A new vista perhaps?... "Pedal on"... Sweet Lady!

    Happy Fall and Good Painting Suz!
    Warmest regards and a hug,
    Bruce

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  13. We came back to walk again into this beautiful scene.
    love
    tweedles

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